Written by Danielle Gerbitz / September 2016
I’m sitting in Starbucks while writing this article, silently reprimanding myself for spending four bucks on this delicious cup of coffee. There was a time about two months ago, when I would not have given it a second thought. I was blessed with a good job, reasonable rent, and a car that had lasted me three years. Then my car broke down and I dropped pretty much all of my savings on a new-to-me Ford Focus. I had already decided to move to Eau Claire with a friend for the summer. Being the stubborn person I am, I could not back out, even though it would have been the practical thing to do. So after my sister’s beautiful wedding, I packed up my things and drove north. I applied to five different jobs (with all the confidence in the world) and heard back from none of them. I was running out of money, and mooching off of one of my best friends and I felt horrible about myself. It was not until I called Buffalo Wild Wings back that I finally got an interview, and was, by the grace of God, hired the same day. However, in the time between applying and my interview, I realized that I was forgetting something.
I was forgetting to pray. So I sat on the porch and watched the rain try to compete with me for the title of “Most Depressing,” and I begged God to help me overcome this. I basically asked him to give me a job and make me less uptight and allow me to make enough money to visit my sister before school starts again.
Matthew 11:28: “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”
And then I realized I was forgetting something else. I was forgetting to thank Him. So I thanked Him for an amazing friend who allowed me to live with her for a couple months. (She also bought us groceries, took me out to eat, put up with my mood swings, and the list goes on.) I thanked Him for providing me with a reliable car. I thanked him for my job back home, that I am blessed enough to go back to at the end of summer.
1 Thessalonians 5:18: “And in all things give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”
But it was not just for the last couple weeks that I had been forgetting to thank God. In the last year, I had been flying high, even if I did not realize it at the time. I had financial stability. I had good grades. I had an apartment with two good, honest roommates. I had a family who made me feel loved. I had Sundays off and on those days I would be welcomed into the home of a beautiful friend’s family for a free supper. For all the blessings that came my way in that year, I am ashamed of how few times I remembered to thank my God. I had so much confidence in myself. I silently praised me so many times for working so hard. And I completely forgot the real reason for my happiness. God piled blessing upon blessing on top of me and almost the entire time, I forgot where they were coming from. I forgot to thank Him constantly for what He is always doing for me. And I forgot look to Him instead of myself when a problem arose.
1 Thessalonians 5:17: “Pray without ceasing.”
I was so focused on myself and my worldly comfort that I forgot the most important thing in the entire universe and beyond. I forgot about Jesus and His love for me. And almost as importantly, I forgot how necessary my connection to God is through prayer. The only reason I can even have that connection is because Jesus Christ did what I could not. He did what somebody who is even 983 times the person that I am, could not do. There is nothing more humbling than that. And there is nothing that I am more grateful for than that.
John 3:16: “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”